Port Shift?

When I got the port place, it felt awkward. It was like, “Holy crap, there’s something popping out of my chest.” Not actually popping our of my chest, but it’s there and it’s foreign and it’s weird. I still sort of feel that way, but I’m used to it.

So back to the beginning. I remember being afraid that if I sneezed a really good sneeze, like one of those muscle-popping sneezes, that the port would just pop out of my chest. I can’t explain why I felt that way, or how I thought that could happen, but I totally did. I presented this concern to the doctor, even though I was fairly sure it was an irrational concern. She said not to worry, that port wasn’t going anywhere.

Challenge accepted.

Enter jump castle. Correction. Enter jump castle obstacle course.

I thought it would be wise to show how great my endurance was and how quickly I could move through the jump castle obstacle course since I’ve been getting so much exercise, building muscle, etc. So after going through it once solo, I decided to race my sister-in-law.

You can imagine how this went. Long story short, we collided somewhere in the middle. She sprained her wrist, I overstretched my left arm, and I’m pretty sure I popped a stitch on my port because there’s a little wobbliness that wasn’t there before.

Shrugs.

I’ll see my surgeon this week and she can check it out, but everyone at the oncologist said it looked okay. It is attached to my jugular, so if there was an issue, I’d know about it by now. It’s been over a week and I’ve had an infusion through it, and nada.

So yeah…if you have a port…maybe jump castles aren’t the best place to be…or at least a jump castle race might not be the best decision.

Oh! I did win the race against my sister-in-law, but I then challenged my brother-in-law and lost miserably.

Second moral of the story – when you’ve got something crazy going on with your toenail, jump castles might not be the place to be.

Random Additions

There are a few random things I thought of that I’m not sure if I ever shared…when I started this blog I vowed to myself to include it all so that maybe one day it might be helpful to someone looking for a real account of what breast cancer was like for someone.

Fingernails – I did not lose my fingernails or toenails. My oncologist said it was a possibility; it was one of the things he brought up while I was super-focused on food. Anyway, I didn’t lose them (although I think I am about to lose the toenail off my big toe), but I did have weak spots that have just grown out. They were deep ridges in my nail that started at the cuticle and as the nail grew, eventually moved their way up, and promptly broke when they reached the tip. They’ve all reached their breaking point, so my nails are currently a mess.

I think the toenail thing is mostly unrelated to treatment. My toenails have been totally fine and haven’t had that same ridge in them like the fingernails. I ended up with a black and blue spot on the side of my toenail. I can’t remember bumping it or anything, but I can’t remember much so I can’t discount it. I still have some neuropathy in my toes, so I could have easily not felt whatever hit it, if something hit it. Anyway, today there was a little blood along the edge, so I think the nail is going to come off. I think my exercising is aggravating it, being on the tips of my toes for planks and whatnot. I’ll keep you posted on The Toenail Saga. You’re welcome.

I Gotta Pee – Another (thankfully short-lived) effect was having to pee the moment I thought about having to pee. Let me explain…(again, you’re welcome)…there were times near the end of chemo where if I felt the urge to pee and thought about it too much before I made it to the bathroom, I would nearly pee myself. Totally random, I know. I’m happy to say that’s no longer a problem.

Chemo Brain – I still have chemo brain. It’s not as bad as it was, but I’m still a little spacey here and there, and have trouble focusing and recalling information. I haven’t gotten very specific about what chemo brain affects, so I’ll do my best here. My long-term memory seems pretty unaffected, but I have trouble recalling more recent things. For example, it may take me some time to recall what happened yesterday, but I have no trouble recalling something that happened two years ago. The ability to concentrate is kind of related to staying in the moment. Like I’ll be reading a book, and just zone out. It was really bad during chemo and made classwork super hard. I’d read the text book and, not only have a hard time focusing, but also forget what I’d read.

So those are a few things I don’t think I delved into previously. If I think of anything else, I’ll add it.