Keeping it cool 😎

I’ve talked a bit about perspective here, and I’m sorry if any of this is repetitive, but thoughts on perspective keep popping in my head throughout my days.

Today, I was driving to the doctor and I was stopped in a right turning lane, the light had just turned red. It was one of those intersections that has two right turning lanes, where you can turn on red from the one on the right, but not the one on the left. So me and a few cars are stopped in the right lane, no one is in the left. A pickup truck came running down the left turning lane and made the right, straight through the red light.

It got me thinking, what’s the rush? Why are we always in such a rush? Don’t get me wrong, I rush around. Sometimes I want to be somewhere or do something yesterday. But since facing cancer, I’ve become a lot more laid back…slower, if you will. Maybe it’s because I’m not keeping myself nearly as busy as I was before (I thrive on a loaded schedule, I don’t dig downtime) or maybe it’s because I’m looking at the bigger picture when I consider things now.

I didn’t beat cancer just to die, be maimed, or hurt/kill someone else in a car accident because my errands or appointments or work is so much more important than a traffic light or lanes in the road or whatever.

And I’ll give the driver of the truck the benefit of the doubt and say that we were near a hospital, so maybe he was trying to get there fast. Maybe.

But every vehicle that runs a red light or drives erratically doesn’t have an emergency…but they might!

Anyway, those are my deep thoughts for today.

10 Months

It’s surreal to me that I’ve “been there, done that” with cancer already, and it’s only been ten months, give or take a week.

Maybe it’s because I still have the port, maybe it’s because my hair is so short, or maybe it’s because I still see my oncologist every three weeks.

Before my diagnosis, I feel like I always thought you had cancer forever, you know? Well, maybe not forever, but not that you’d get diagnosed, blink, and then not have cancer anymore. Ok, so all the middle stuff wasn’t a blink…chemo, multiple surgeries, side effects, etc…all those things took time.

But still…Dr. JB told me in the beginning that one day, this would all just be a blip on my radar. Just a piece of my past. I’m not quite there yet, I still have 4 cycles of Herceptin to go and this Lupron shot, but chemo is done and the last surgery removed the cancer. Blip. That’s exactly what it feels like…a blip. Like it’s surreal that I even went through chemo. I can’t believe that’s behind me. If it weren’t for the short hair and the scars and the soreness, it would be hard to believe it happened at all. I feel like that’s all that’s left to remind me sometimes.

I’m not naive, I know reoccurrence is always a possibility, but dang…ten months ago I would have never guessed that ten months would go by so quickly! That I’d be cancer free in under a year. Before I knew anything about anything, I figured I’d have cancer longer. It just seems like people have cancer for a while.

I don’t know…it sounds dumb, but I don’t know how to better articulate this feeling.

I’m relieved. I’m hopeful. I’m surprised.

It’s just weird. I feel lucky. So lucky.

I saw a picture of Brad and I from the solar eclipse last year, just days before I was diagnosed, and it reminded me of how things can change so quickly. Now, we’re about two months from that same date, and things almost feel ((dare I say it?)) normal.

Crazy.

Crazy crazy crazy.

Post-Vacation Blues

I had a great time on vacation. Getting to spend some time with Brad without work and doctors and having to adult was wonderful.

I ate three burgers (one of the restaurants at the resort has the best burgers I’ve ever had in my life, no lie) over the course of the week. That’s about two more burgers than I’ve had so far this year. They’re so good. If you find yourself at Orange Lake Resort in Kissimmee, hit up Legacy Grill for a Smokehouse Burger. Ah-mazing.

I also ate way too much chips and salsa at Chuy’s, and let’s not forget the margaritas. Yum. I had bought Malibu rum because that’s sort of my go-to alcoholic beverage – I like it in Diet Coke or fruit juice. But I had a margarita at Chuy’s, then cheap margaritas at the resort during happy hour, and I fell in love. I think tequila does that to you. Well, I guess it’s a love/hate thing since tequila kicks some people’s butts.

I read, was totally lazy, and drove the cart while Brad golfed one day. It was a nice time.

So I’m home and this week is back to reality! I’m happy to be home with my pup, she missed us and we missed her. I think our best vacation ever was when we went to the Outer Banks and were able to take her with us. Pets deserve vacations, too.

I had an oncologist appointment this morning, got my Herceptin and Lupron. Nothing new to report there. Everything is “normal” there.

I’m returning to work today for real. I’ve got a few line therapy sessions this week, and I’m looking forward to that.

So I’m feeling good and healthy. I’ll be thankful when the rest of the soreness is gone. I’ll also be thankful when I can start exercising again and lose this ache I’ve got in my joints again. I hate that I went steps forward and then steps backward in regards to activity, but I know that extra strength I built up before surgery has helped me a lot over the last several weeks.

Being at the oncologist now is weird. I remember going and dreading what I knew was to follow. I don’t have that anymore, which is great – not complaining over here! It’s just weird because I’m in and out of there, and I used to see some of the same faces, but now there’s often new faces in various stages of treatment, and it’s weird. I want to say something, something motivating, because I was where they were, but I don’t know their story. I don’t know if they’ll be where I am now one day, or if their situation is more dire. So I don’t want to pull something straight off one of those top-ten-not-to-do lists for cancer patients. So I just keep to myself and smile.

But I want to do more. One day I was there and someone had put together little comfort packages and handed them out to all the chemo patients. I think I’m going to do something like that. Put together a list of things that truly gave me some comfort during my chemo and make little care packages to hand out. There are other, grander things I’d like to do, but for now this might just do. Little things mean a lot, at least they did to me. So maybe these care packages will brighten someone’s day.

Officially Cancer Free! Like for real, this time.

I may have jumped the gun in announcing that I was cancer free back in January.

It was the initial thought after the lumpectomy, that whatever cancer was left after the chemo, was removed during the lumpectomy. But when the pathology cane back for that, the margins weren’t great, so it was assumed some was left behind. Not a big deal since the mastectomy was in the works anyway.

Fast forward to today, when I saw Dr JB and got the results of the mastectomy pathology, and now we know it’s really gone! There was even more left behind from the lumpectomy than they’d initially assumed, but that was completely removed and the margins were great.

So hooray! I can officially say I’m cancer free! ❤️

Feels good.

I’ve Lost 6.8 lbs in One Week Doing 21 Day Fix®!

Yep, you read that right. I’ve lost 6.8lbs (and a couple inches) in my first week of 21 Day Fix®.

What is it? I’m so glad you asked! 21 Day Fix® is a foolproof nutrition and exercise plan by Beachbody®!

You all know how important food is to me. I love to eat. I love tasty food and I enjoy variety. I don’t like being told what to eat, and I don’t do well with restrictions. This blog has been live for just a few short months and I think I’ve communicated my passion for food quite well in that time. Why is this important? Because I wouldn’t choose a food plan that didn’t allow me to still be passionate about food. That’s how awesome Portion Fix is.

Here is a ridiculously simple summary: A quick calculation determined how many of each colored cup I get each day. The colored cups represent different food groups or food types (for example, seeds and dressings go in the orange cup). I plan out my meals so that you use ALL my cups. Voila!

Now, I said this wasn’t restrictive…and it’s not. But there are some limitations. I should eat the healthiest options for each category. For example, the yellow cup is the carb cup; on the yellow list is brown rice and whole grain pasta, but not white rice or regular pasta. Moral of this story…I can still eat pasta, and I have.

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This is a super easy plan to follow, and honestly, after only a few days I started to feel very comfortable. It does take planning and preparation, so I needed to have some patience for that. But it’s not hard. It’s not hard at all, and I’ve had so much support.

I said I was eating a lot of food, and I am. Each day, I have 5 servings of vegetables, 3 servings of fruit, 5 servings of protein, 4 servings of carbs, and a few condiments. I can use garlic, lemon juice, and spices freely. Portion Fix has recipes and other participants share theirs, or you can keep it simple and create your own. For lunch, I do a meat, a carb, and a veggie. Nice and simple since I’m on the go a lot at lunchtime.

Here are some of my prepped lunches. This week I planned ground beef with some seasonings we picked up at the the Flowertown Festival, and salsa chicken in the slow cooker. We made brown rice and quinoa. We also did frozen veggies, steamed in the bag in the microwave, then briefly sauteed in olive oil and garlic on the stove.

I made some seasonings, salad dressings, and even cookies using Portion Fix recipes. They’ve all been delicious.

I seriously felt like I was eating too much. It was a lot of food. But when I threw it all into the My Fitness Pal app, the calories were low! They were exactly in the recommended range. It’s because I’m eating more of the healthier, filling foods, and less of the foods that don’t fill me up, but instead make me crave more food.

I’m also using Shakeology®, which is a superfood shake powder you can mix in with just about anything. If you mix it with fruit, you deduct it from your allowance. Add a veggie? Deduct that, too. I often make mine with a serving of spinach, a serving of blueberries, a teaspoon of natural peanut butter, cinnamon, and water. It’s delicious. Since I’m lactose intolerant, I do the Vanilla Vegan flavor, so I don’t have to worry about taking a pill every time I have a shake.

Speaking of lactose intolerance…there’s very little dairy in Portion Fix. You can have it, but it’s easy enough for me to avoid. And what makes this plan great is that it’s clean eating…you’re not eating processed foods so you know exactly what goes into everything you are eating. If you have a food allergy or an intolerance, you know whether or not you’re eating something you shouldn’t.

My biggest woe before starting this program was that eating healthy was going to be expensive. The lie detector has determined that is a lie! Lean ground beef? It costs the same as it would if I bought it for hamburger helper. Frozen veggies? I bought bags upon bags of generic stuff from Walmart for 77 cents each (and they taste the same as the brand names). Brown rice? A bag is a couple bucks. It’s not expensive to buy raw, unprocessed foods. Processed foods actually cost more.

Of course there is also the exercise component. The package I signed up for got me access to Beachbody® on Demand. It’s online access to all Beachbody® exercise programs, that includes some of the more popular programs like P90X and Insanity. I chose 21 Day Fix because I pretty much need a 21 Day Fix given my surgery. But if I get bored or want to try something a little more intense, there are tons for me to choose from, including some dance ones. I totally can’t dance though, so it would be interesting.

So the exercise plan for 21 Day Fix gives you a different workout to do every day. Monday is Total Body Cardio, Tuesday is Upper Fix, etc. You don’t have a rest day. Sunday is yoga, so it’s more of a chill day than the other days, but it’s still an intense workout. My legs burned after day one. They were SORE on day two. I thought they’d fall off when I had to do the Lower Fix (legs) on day three, but they just sort of went numb and all was well again. Ha. Seriously, intense workouts considering they are only 30 minutes each.

So a new nutrition plan, exercise…my gains so far in this program aren’t just related to the scale. I also feel a thousand times better overall. I have become more regular, which has been a pretty decent issue for me since chemo started back in September. I have better endurance. I want to get up and do stuff. I also feel good mentally. I’m happy to be doing something and seeing results. It makes me feel good.

Anyway, this entire post probably sounds like an advertisement. It’s not really. It is a testimonial though. It’s me sharing my success because I’m so excited to have found success and I feel like I need to share it because I want anyone else who wants to be successful to find theirs, too. I signed up to be a coach, I just didn’t want to promote it until I could be proof that it works. And now I am. Proof, that is.

If you want to talk to me more about the program, or other programs Beachbody® offers, please reach out. I want to help. I’ll tell you exactly how I signed up, what I signed up for, and I’ll tell you all about the awesome group of women I’m part of…women from all walks of life who are in this to succeed and be healthy, women who have been so motivating to me. Or, if you’d rather just kind of check things out, I’ve included my Coach web links below. I know I have some followers here outside of the US, so I’m including links to my Coach page for Canada and the UK. Or, if you’re totally not interested, that’s OK! I don’t expect everyone to be on the same journey, and that’s perfectly fine. BUT, just know that Portion Fix isn’t only about losing weight. You can use the program to gain or maintain as well. It’s about eating healthy, really. So feel free to ask me about it, or click one of the links below to check things out. 🙂

My US Coach Site.
My Canada Coach Site.
My UK Coach Site.

I promise this blog isn’t going to turn into a place for me to grow my business. However, it is eventually going to transition to something else (I actually have a plan I’ll unveil soon) since my cancer journey will eventually be over. My health and wellness will definitely be part of my journey. It’s something I should have made a priority a very long time ago.

So I’ve got the oncologist tomorrow. Should be uneventful, just my Herceptin injection. Next week will be the evil arm shot. I’ll post an update if something exciting happens.

New Nutrition and Exercise Plan

So last Monday I was pretty bummed following my appointment. I’ve done well this week to get some extra exercise in and be careful about what I’m eating. I haven’t devoured a bunch of junk like I usually do, although I did chow down on some awesome carrot cake sandwich cookies I found at Publix. I allowed myself the little splurge after a week of being good. Not sure if it has made any difference as I don’t typically weigh-in until Sundays.

Anyway, I’m super excited about this new plan I’m starting. It’s not a diet, it’s similar to what I was doing when I was counting calories, only it’s looking at quantities of food in a different way. I’ll go into more detail after I’ve completed the first week and have a bit more to share. It’s going to be challenging, but I feel like it’s going to be great, too.

I have a great coach, and I’m not even certain how it came about exactly, but we connected on the subject and boom! A plan was born. A plan I feel good about, which is exactly what I needed. I’m already feeling motivated by the group, and I haven’t even officially started yet. The science behind it seems pretty simple, which is what I like. And what I appreciate most is that the nutrition aspect is something I can keep up with while I’m stuck being a lump after surgery, so yay for that!

2018 will be a year of positive change for me!  <— New mantra.

Happy Easter!